Who You Really Are

What if you could become who you really are? Wait a minute...is that even possible? Aren't you already who you really are? Hmm. Yes, in a way we are who we really are and in another way, we aren't.

Take me for example. I have many of the same characteristics I had when I was 7 years old. I'm still bossy, still somewhat naive, still trying to do things right so I don't get in trouble and still wanting someone to protect me. It was my big brother, Jay Lee, who protected me when I was 7 (he was 9). Now it's my husband, Kurt.

But I don't think those characteristics define who I really am. Neither do my skills or appearance or roles in life. If that were all I am, why would I be searching for truth? Why would so many of us be trying to improve ourselves? Why would Wayne Dyer sell so many books? See, something's not right about who we are. There's an itch, a discomfort with settling for "This is who I am." Even if you can say it with conviction, some part of you still asks, "Really? This is it?" We want more, or less maybe. More depth and less bluster. More authenticity and less personality. More joy and less depression. More compassion and less anger. The list goes on.

But even if we could perfect this human form, even if we could become the best example of a human being (and who, might I ask, would be the judge of that?), would we really be satisfied?

I think not. We are never satisfied enough with ourselves. This suggests that we are not who we really are or that no amount of becoming better will ever be enough.

Kalindi says: You are not who you think you are; you are not that being of illusion.

If you're not that being of illusion made up of personality, ego, good & bad traits, habits, thoughts, opinions, etc., then who are you? For me, the answer is, "Heck, I don't know." But I want to find out.

The only solution to that problem is to go deeper.

Signing off now. Have a good night.