First Thing in the Morning

I wake up feeling like a blur of color and moods. And I feel cranky. Slowly the colors and moods arrange themselves into a pattern that I call Me.

It's kind of like when I turn on my laptop. It has to go through all the circuits and whatever other virtual spaces it explores, before it shows up with the password page indicating, "Okay, now you can come in. I'm ready."

Before I come all the way back on line and back into the pattern I call Me, I start a morning meditation. Morning meditation starts like this: I realize that I am no longer asleep. I sit up. I stumble to the bathroom and brush my teeth. Then I come back to bed, pull the covers up to my chin and grab my journal. Then I sit quietly and listen for the whispers of God. I sometimes hear answers to questions and sometimes I'll remember something that I didn't know I forgot. I write all this down. (Sometimes I fall back asleep, but I consider this meditation, too.) Usually I sit for about 30 minutes.

I get answers to questions. My friend Claire says she gets answers to questions in the shower. But answers usually come to me in the morning with this meditation or soon after. It makes me smile because I like that the answers come in God's timing and I like being patient and waiting for them. And if I got answers in the shower, I might fall down. I hate that.

Usually the things I remember in meditation are about people. A person will come to my mind, I'll feel something about him and then realize that I need to call him. Calling that person probably would not occur to me during my waking hours, but when I'm sitting in meditation, it makes perfect sense. So I write it down and sometime later in the day, I call him.

And it's not like I call him and he exclaims, "Oh my God, I can't believe you're calling me today! I really needed to talk to you!" or anything. It's not magic. It feels more like calling the person is just something I need to do. Sometimes I don't know why. When I call him, whatever happens happens.

The result of this kind of meditation in the morning is that I get out of bed feeling refreshed, feeling alive and not feeling so cranky anymore.

"Okay, now you can come in. I'm ready."

Thank you for listening. Good night.